Today I received some information from my doctor concerning recent bloodwork and an mri.
My rheumatoid factor is skyhigh...95...a typical rheumatoid factor is suppose to be 14 or less. My liver enzymes were a bit high...to be expected since I take so much medications and most go through my liver.

The question that whirls through my mind in times like my appt today is...Why? Why do I have to go through this? I am a good person who has a pretty good life.

Sometimes I wonder what the purpose is in all that I go through. I keep thinking I just cant wrap my head around the possible right answer.

I heard my doctor say nearly the same thing when we were talking about the economy and how are people suppose to live. Why? Why do good people have to go through all this economy stuff? Why do that have to lose their jobs, their homes and suffer? I looked at him and wished I could have given him an answer.

I told him well...I am not sure. I did tell him you know there was a King in the old testament that asked some questions similar to what we are talking about...Why do I have to toil in the sun for nothing???? my dr. smiled.

I wonder the same, why are we toiling away to have everything ripped right out from us. We will possibly have no retirement funds, social security etc. Things really look bleak right now.

The thing in all of this is that whether we are ill, lose our jobs, our homes, and etc. we have a God who cares about us, loves us and knows the plan...and the biggest most awesome part is that God doesnt have a plan B.

I happen to be glad I am not the only one who wonders why about things. I hope Dr. Arabbo is talking to God right now about the things that are perplexing him so much, I know I will be talking to God...I know he has the answer!