New Diagnosis.

Just when I think things are going to calm down with my health, another health problems shows up.

I have been having symptoms of neck pain, pain that radiates into my left arm to my elbow, and into the upper part of my back and head for nearly a month. I have been also having headaches.

Today, I went to visit my family doctor. By the way this guy is incredible! I am pleased that he talks to me about my test results regardless of them needing to be commented on, he sends me to specialists when he knows something is up but wants to get more information, and he listens to me and takes me seriously every time I walk into his practice. I am so glad that he does. He knows my struggles with illness and I help him to understand what it is like to have depression, anxiety, rheumatoid arthritis, depression, high blood pressure and whatever else that happens. I am able to be straight up with him and tell him exactly what it is like for me to have these illnesses/diseases.

Back to the visit, I went in to get results of a recent neck mri. Not good news, but not too terrible news. I have three bulging discs, one vertebrae that is bruised, and a impinged nerve.

I am not really sure how my neck the trauma that is showing up on the mri and giving me pain.

I keep wondering when my body is going to calm down and quit attacking itself.
I feel my body is betraying me, it is a traitor. I am a person who loves to be active in church life and personal life, lately though I am unmotivated because of constant chronic pain.

I try not to allow my diseases consume my life, to where I think about it every waking minute. Course when I am not properly medicated that is what happens. Until I can get back in to see my family dr. I will go without enough medication.

I have found over the last month that pain is really taking over my life. I have realized that I have been isolated because of the want to stay home and hibernate until the pain is gone or less.

I often wonder if really all the pain I am going through is real. But then some medical tests proves that is truly real.

I have watched the movie, "As Good As it Gets", Jack Nicholson, the main character in the movie has an obessive compulsive disorder. In one part of the movie he shows up at the psychiatrists office on his way out of the door he looks at the patient's in the waiting room and says, "what if this is as good as it gets?" Then I think to myself, what if it things don't get better? My answer is "Tammie you are not going to get better, Rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia are not curable diseases, but you can find ways to cope, and live better than you are."